I lost my virginity on July 6, 1988.
It was awful, and very cliche'. He told me he loved me after 2 weeks of dating. I wanted to be loved...and I liked the way he'd sing in my ear at night (Breathe's Hands to Heaven) He broke up with me 2 weeks later...well, really it was the next day...but it took 2 weeks of shamelessly hounding him before he came clean. Interesting to note, his birthday is May 8th...same as Peanut's. Yes, that was going through my mind when she arrived at 3am (damn!).
My experiences with love have been challenging. Dates get stuck in my head, anniversaries of joy and hurt...but from the joy and pain of loving (and losing) I've grown. Those dates are part of me, but they don't define me. I'm deep, vulnerable, expressive, accepting of myself (mostly).
I love knowing that I'm no longer that "needy" girl...
It's Wednesday, what do you love?
Dates get stuck in my hear too :(
ReplyDeleteMrs. Pickle, I hope you have more good dates than sad ones.
ReplyDeleteI don't have this problem - I frequently live my life without knowing what the date on any particular day is. If I need to remember it, I put it in my phone.
ReplyDeleteAs for what I love, tomatoes. And ribs. I'm going to eat some leftover ribs now.
My friends told me I was a rubbish girl because it took me 10 minutes to even work out the year I lost my virgin card...
ReplyDeleteI'm awful with dates and without my blackberry I would be lost, I don't even know what day I'm on most of the time
This reminds me of the conversation I had with my dad last night.... My grand father passed away 25 years ago yesterday. He chuckled because the only thing I remember about any of it was waking up that morning and the neighbor woman being there. I made a bowl of fruit loops and she twisted her face is disgust because I was eating them.
ReplyDeleteAmazing what sticks with us...and what doesn't. My brain holds onto places as well. Oooh...next week's post.
ReplyDeleteAnd I forgot to mention that So You Think You Can Dance is on tonight!!!! I'm a happy girl.
Oh and thanks for reminding me it's Wednesday.... That makes me excited.
ReplyDeleteHappy Hump Day!
I don't really do dates either... I remember the important ones, at least when they are, if not when they happen. I don't do time much either outside of work.
ReplyDeleteI'm curious you 'celebrate' bad days... good days makes sense... maybe you should just remember the feelings and mash them up with similar times into one almighty bad day... celebrate it by not showering, cooking and sleeping with a random stranger on that day... just saying...
The only thing that is stuck in my head is 10:26. I was born on October 26th and I see 1026 or 10:26 or 10/26 everywhere I look. It's a little creepy actually. Every time I look at a clock or watch, it is exactly at 10:26. I see it every where!
ReplyDeleteRJF, I think you're the male version of me in some ways...I was born on 11/26...and I find that I always catch the clock at exactly 11:26. Twilight Zone Music
ReplyDeleteArlequin, I hearby dub July 13th to be my One Almighty Bad Day. Instead of What I Love Wednesday, this year it will be What I Don't Love...but I won't be sleeping with a stranger.
I love the strength of this post. ;)
ReplyDeleteIt's crazy how dates can be so strange. My first son was born on my wedding anniversary. My second son was born on my husband's birthday. My third daughter was born thirty minutes before my birthday. Crazy fate!
Today would have been my 15th year wedding anniversary.
ReplyDeleteToday I LOVE that it is not. :)
Happy Un-Anniversary, Julianna! :)
ReplyDeleteMy ex and I were 4 days shy of getting married and divorced on the same day of the month.
I love your face! lol You make me smile and are so much more than that. I'm proud of the leaps and bounds you are taking!
ReplyDeleteI think it is the rite of passage. My first time stopped calling me the next day as well. I had to track him down like a dog!
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