Words still just not coming...Masking my emotions by telling myself I'm not feeling anything. The truth is I've had a lot of deep thoughts over the last two weeks and I'm exhausted...I've been turning inward for so long and it is wearing me out. I don't like my reflection in the mirror right now, but I do care for the woman who stares back...She screams for connection. This journey has been long and hard....this journey back to the better side of myself.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Haven't felt like writing much lately. Not depressed, just feeling overly even...nothing moves me at the moment. Reminds me of a story my mom used to tell me. Apparently when I was feeling moody as a kid (I think around 3 or 4) I'd tell my parents that I was "having a movement"...obviously this was quite funny to them...but maybe I was onto something...hard to get moody when nothing moves you. Wondering what was moving me all those years ago?
I'm okay with feeling blank at the moment, numb...not particularly finding peace in knowing this...I think if it goes on for too long there might be cause for concern, but for now I'm just not in the movement.
Posted by Stephanie D at 11:21 AM