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Sunday, December 30, 2012

That Child

I screamed at her.
It was the middle of the night
And I was so tired.
Her face was not recognizable,
It was blurred by my imagination.
I recognized the yellow blinds...
They were from my childhood bedroom,
But the room was not mine.
It was isolated from the rest of the house.
I yelled, "I can't do this anymore!"
"This is your child!"
"I can't be the parent!"
The father agreed but offered no assistance.
He was silent,
A faint shadow in the background.
She tried to reassure me,
"I'll take care of this now."
But she disappeared after she spoke.
I wanted to walk away,
I couldn't.
Nothing was going to change,
And the child still needed me.

I woke up and cried for that child.

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  1. We all cry for this child. Take care, and I hope 2013 has nothing but good things in store for you.

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  2. It was one messed up dream and I'm still trying to wrap my head around it.

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  4. I hope this coming year is WONDERFUL for you!!

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  5. I'm sad, too. I'm sad for you and for me.

    Love,
    Janie

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  6. Not that you asked, but hell that's never stopped me before. :) Miss Steph, when things got tough for me a while back, I remember thinking I just wanted a hiatus from everything... I wanted no responsibility, just as my ex-husband had done. And when I was hurting the most, and needing a safe place to land, there were always these two kids pulling at my every limb wanting stuff... TV, to play... to eat (of all things). That was what they knew... I was their mamma and they were only 3 and 4 ish, they knew no better.

    And at that moment, the last thing I wanted to be was a mother. But alas, I had to put my big girl (granny ones, since no one was seeing them anyways) undies on and take care of the responsibilities I had, and loved. Which in the end, was exactly the distraction I needed.

    I have no idea what your dream means, but maybe you're just overwhelmed and need sometime to take care of YOU.

    (((HUGS)))

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    1. Juli, you may be onto something with your interpretation...I think having my mom here and talking about that house we lived in brought back memories of what a good time that was in my life...add to that my recent break-up and my mom going back to New Mexico and well there you go.

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